35 Weeks Pregnant

Hello. 

Just a quick little sentence to say this is not an 'official post'. I won't be posting it on my Twitter, it's kind of just a if you happen to read it then thats ok :).

So as you probably know by my posts and pictures I'm heavily pregnant and just wanted to write down how I'm feeling at the moment so when I look back I can remember how I was feeling so close to the birth of my second child.

I turned 35 weeks today so that should give me 5 weeks left. I have a feeling in my waters though that he isn't going to be staying in there too much longer. As I get closer to giving birth I'm starting to panic about being ready for it all. I'm still waiting for a couple of key things that have been bought for us and as we get closer to my due date my nesting instinct is driving me mad! I still need to get a snowsuit for my little man but the only one I have managed to find online from ASDA George is a girls one! Where are the boys ones then ASDA? Tut tut. My sister has also offered to lend me her baby carrier from my nephew so I'm eager to pick that up and have it ready in the house. Also my sister-in-law has bought us a bouncy chair and is waiting for it to be delivered so I'm eagerly awaiting to have that ready to go too. I find bouncy chairs are essential for newborns so I can't wait for it to arrive! 

Everything else seems to be sorted. I can't think of anything else me or Jay may need in the first couple of months. I've even started buying 3-6 month clothes for him so that when we eventually have to replace the 0-3 month stuff, it won't be such a big expense. 

Keira seems to be getting a bit fed up with Mummy being pregnant now. I can tell she misses some of the things we used to do before I got a big bump. She is a good girl though, she never complains about me being pregnant; just seems to be asking when I'll be 'not fat' again. I feel bad not being able to do stuff with her at the moment. I have a lot of help from family trying to keep her busy but you can tell she wants to do stuff with me. I'm thinking of having a day after Jay is born where me and Keira do something just the two of us so she can be rewarded for how well behaved she has been! I'm also thinking of doing her a little 'gift bag' to put on her bed for when I get back from the hospital. Just some sweets, a toy, maybe a new Disney DVD? And then write on the label that it is a gift bag for her from Jay as a thank you for talking to him and being his sister. Hopefully it will show her that this little creature in her home isn't as scary as she might think he is!

Me and Daryl seem to be really strong at the moment. We never really argued before I got pregnant and I don't honestly think we have argued since I've been pregnant either. He's been really supportive and since we've been giving each other space (I don't nag at him every time he wants to go skating) we are finding that we value our time together more. I don't think we could ever be one of those couples that live in each others pockets. Even though we live together we have the space we need which is what has made us a lot stronger as a couple. I do miss him though. With his work he gets home at gone 6 and by time we have had dinner and put Keira to bed I only get a hour with him a day before I get really tired and come to bed. Obviously after a long day at work I don't expect him to come to bed at half 8/ 9 o'clock. So I'll leave him to play on his PS3 and relax after a hard day at work. 

I don't know where our weekends go. They fly by so fast it feels like I only really get a couple hours with him. Plus he sometimes works away at weekends, next weekend being one of them so I'm not really going to be seeing him at all next week. It sucks but I know he enjoys having a decent income and providing for the family. It gives him a sense of pride.

My parents are also on holiday at the moment which is hard. Whenever I have a small problem that I just want to vent about my Mum is normally the first person I call. Not to mention Keira adores my Mum so when she is around it makes things so much easier. She'll be back not long after Keira goes back to school. I think once they are home and Daryl has done his last weekend away before his Paternity leave i'll feel better. At the moment I just feel a bit in limbo. Jay could potentially come any day now and with my medical problems over this pregnancy I wouldn't be surprised if he came before he is meant too.

I'm looking forward to having my whole wardrobe back too. I hate the fact that I have a wardrobe full of beautiful clothes and I can't wear anything! My maternity jeans don't fit me right. Note to self if anyone asks only recommend jeans with a full band, not just the ones with the 'stretch' above the pockets, they do not work! My bump is pretty huge too. The stretch marks are horrendous! I'm actually considering putting foundation on them so that my hubby doesn't see how horrible they look! I've always had issues with my weight and I know people say 'for god sakes you're pregnant, don't be stupid' I still don't like being big. I hoping this doesn't effect me after having Jay. I would hate to go through depression again just because of my weight. The pressure to be perfect ey?   

Wow. Looking over this post I sure have rambled a lot. Luckily nobody has to read this apart from me so it's OK.